Anyway, any way

“When Jesus reached the spot, he looked up and said to him, “Zacchaeus, come down immediately. I must stay at your house today.”” – Luke‬ ‭19:5‬ ‭NIV‬‬ –

As I walk into 2018, I’m reminded of the story of Zacchaeus. Nothing stands out to me more today than Jesus telling him that He MUST stay at his house. Let that sink in. . . Jesus was intentional about entering into his world, flaws and all. During Jesus’ Ministry, He never made it about Him. He always made it about the person(s) He was ministering to as He did with Zacchaeus.

As I enter 2018, I acknowledge I am broken. I am flawed. I am imperfect. Yet God still loves me anyway. He calls me to Him anyway. He wants to spend time with me anyway. He enters into my home anyway. In any way and every way, anyway, God always seeks to stay at our house; to lift heads, to mend brokenness, to heal wounds, to save by grace, to simply be close; closer than the skin on our bones and the breath in our lungs. . .

I want this to be the prayer of my heart for 2018 and forward: I pray I would put others first as God puts me first when I enter into His throne room. I hope I would be intentional about meeting people where they are and responding to their need in His way and not my own. I pray to love people with His heart & listen with His ears.

With 2018 in front of me and 364 days ahead, I surrender it all at the feet of Jesus. I praise God for the valleys and the mountain tops to come. I praise Him for the losses and the gains, the good and the bad, the victories and the failures; I praise Him in advance because God is always God and even in the struggle, He is there.

I pray this is the year of intentional grace. . .

2017, you were a year of many many lessons. God, thank you. Thank you for the wonderful experiences. Thank you for the blessings. Thank you for listening to my hearts cry every morning. Thank you for the closeness in the grief. Thank you for the growing pains. Thank you for showing me me through your eyes; even if it was difficult. Thank you for molding me and refining me. Thank you for the work in process. Thank you for the healing. Thank you for the stretching that made me feel wiggly. Thank you for it all. Thank you for who You are.

I’ve cried much. I’ve learned much. I’ve hurt much. I’ve loved much. I’ve laughed much. I’ve been blessed much. I’ve been loved much. In 2017, I lived much & learned I have so much to learn . . . With my heart full, I share some of my favorite moments with you beloved. . . . .

In 2017, my relationship with my mother has slowly been mended. There has been much healing, much growth, and much love. As much as I don’t want to admit it, I’ve learned I’m very much like her. Through accepting that, I’ve seen how beautiful and wise she really is. Thank you my sweet, kind, and patient mami. Eres mi paño de lágrimas y mi vaso de fuerza.

In 2017, I got even closer with my Sister Sister, if that’s even possible. You are Gods greatest gift to me. Simply, thank you.

In 2017, I learned the value of being present in the moment with those you love. Each time I wanted to hurry through a moment because of everything I had to do, I heard the Holy Spirit whisper to remain still & take it all in. I learned to be intentional with my family who teach me most how to love with the love of Christ.

In 2017, I learned the true meaning of presence. I understood how to love with a hug.

In 2017, I learned when God gives you a position of leadership, it exposes your faults, your weaknesses, your imperfections, and your shortcomings. But where I fell short, God made up the distance. I learned He exposes to heal.

I learned the beginning of what it means to be a leader: it means to call out purpose, influence greatness, kickstart the healing of others, and love unconditionally when its most difficult. Lord, thank you for these amazing children of Yours You have entrusted into my care. I do not take it lightly even when I doubt why.

In 2017, I learned how to truly value friendship & blessings. I was blessed beyond measure with an amazing roommate and beautiful sisters in Christ.

In 2017, I learned why my name means “shining light” because God intentionally created me to shine His light in the darkness but I have to be willing to walk into where it’s darkest. . .

In 2017, I learned to embrace a part of my story & began learning how to live loved. . . Thank you for penning this Lord.

Happy new year beloved💛

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Old Westbury Garden

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My mother and I meet up every Saturday, or at least we try to. We go on little adventures or we just have a shopping day and get lunch. But a few weeks ago, my mom tells me about old Westbury garden. She saw it on someone’s Facebook and because I have no social media, I’d never heard of this place. I researched it and decided, it’s a go. So come 10am, my mom, sister, and I jump in the car and put it in waze. If you’re in the New York City area or Long Island, then I HIGHLY suggest you visit! It is one of the most beautiful gardens I’ve ever visited. It’s perfectly nestled in Old Westbury, Long Island; about an hour or so drive from the city. This was the home of John S. Phipps, his wife, and their four children in the early 1900’s. It’s $12 per person and worth EVERY penny!

It is an estate of over 200 acres comprised of gardens, lakes, and ponds. The home contains some of the families personal antique items that were well preserved. It’s so beautiful and feels as if you’re stepping back in time the moment you step foot into the home. Every where you turn it’s something else that catches your eye.

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There are beautiful vintage paintings all over the home filled with perfect little touches of lamps, clocks, and antique bedding. All over the estate, as you walk around, there are also life size sculptures incredibly designed by Seward Johnson. They’re kind of these surprises waiting for you to inspect and take photos with them. I think this was my mother’s favorite part, to be honest. She was always on the hunt for the next statue. It was as if each one told a different story. My mom even narrated a story for some of them which was hilarious to say the least. It was amazing!!

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This was honestly one of my favorite statues! As we were walking up to it, my mom says, “Oh wow, he’s going to war and she’s so sad”, in her perfect Spanish accent. I laughed but after really letting it sink in and looking at the details on their faces, it made the statue that much more real for me. I was in awe.

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This is my absolute favorite photo of my mom and I!!! How beautiful is she? 🙂

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We walked the entire estate and then some! It was about 2-3 hours but it was so beautiful and interactive because of the statues. I was obsessed with every little thing! I was in awe by Gods amazingly artistic hand in the rose garden which was what I loved the most. If you’re looking to get away but still stay close then I highly recommend taking a little trip to Old Westbury Garden. You wont regret it!! 🙂

Step Out


A few months ago, I was faced with a really tough decision. I had applied to be a sociotherapist in a foster care agency for behaviorally challenged children and teens. More often than not, these kids are on psychiatric medications so it’s a really demanding position. But it was one of my dream jobs. My parents had been foster parents growing up so I knew the challenges these children faced in the system. I wanted to help them, to be a support system for them, & to motivate their families into positive change and growth. I prayed for these kids even before I got the job. I prayed for their freedom & their growth. I even prayed for their families & their futures. And I got the job! But now I was faced with the decision if I should take the position. . .

Here I was, newly graduated from college with a bachelors degree in psychology, in school for my masters in mental health counseling, with a job that didn’t pay all that well, & I was struggling to decide whether or not to jump on this amazing  opportunity. I wrestled in prayer but for some reason I knew I couldn’t take it.

So one day as I was waiting for the bus, I saw a pamphlet on the floor. It was a windy day & oddly enough that piece of paper did not fly away. So I walked over to it & I saw these verses on the paper:

“Those who go down to the sea in ships, Who do business on great waters, They see the works of the LORD, And His wonders in the deep.” – Psalms‬ ‭107:23-24‬ ‭NKJV

Immediately I thought about the job. But that’s not all I thought about. My heart welled up & I thought of that missions trip I had been researching for months. & now I was torn. What did God want me to do?

I wish I could say I took the job but I didn’t. I declined the position & started to pray over the missions trip. And amazingly enough, God opened a door & now I know what those verses meant. God was speaking His promise into existence. God was saying, “I know you’re scared. I know you’ve never done this. I know you’ve never even taken a flight alone. And I know this would be stepping out of your comfort zone but it’s only in stepping out that you will see my glory.”

When we step out in faith, we choose to say that we don’t know what will happen but because God does, you’re gonna do it. When you step out in faith you choose to go down where there is no light & be the light. When you step out in faith, you might not know who you need to speak to but God does, so you rest in that. When you step out in faith, you walk through the open door to see Gods miracles first hand.

I am so excited to say I’ll be going on my first missions trip to Cuba in August! I won’t know anyone but I choose to step out into the middle of the ocean & let Jesus be my lifejacket. So I ask that you’d all keep me in prayer! 🙂

As always, be encouraged , be empowered, and be blessed!

The King of Pursuing


“The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of his hands.” – Psalm‬ ‭19:1‬ ‭NIV‬‬

One of my favorite things in the world is watching the sun setting. Sunsets remind me of how big and great God is. They remind me how perfect of an artist He is. They show me how real He is because only a great God can create such a masterpiece through sunsets. Most of all, they remind me of how much God pursues us through His creations.
If you ever look at the wonders of nature from the trees in the wind, the flowers in an open field, to the waves on a calm day, you become enveloped by the grace of God. He has created all of these beautiful things in nature JUST to get our attention. God pursues us every minute of every single day through His creations.

There’s no way that we can deny His existence when such greatness exists in the world. His world. . . I love that my King looks for so many ways to pursue His princes and princesses. I love that He is The King of Pursuing.

Thank you Lord for pursuing us in all that you have done, all that you do, and in all that you will continue to do. Thank you for these creations that speak volumes of the creator. . .

“For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse.” – Romans‬ ‭1:20‬ ‭NIV‬‬